When the pandemic arrived and NZ was in lockdown, because my work is in health information systems, the demands were frantic. I couldn’t practise without being interrupted by phone calls and after a while it became just “snatches” of practise. During the last year I hurt my back more frequently, damaged my knee and shoulder, and spent much time at physiotherapy. Finally I made the connection between the two. Now I don’t interrupt my practise to answer the phone. Because of the pain in my arm and shoulder I’m discovering how important simple things like hand position affect how much the shoulder moves and opens. Everything is connected.
There have been a number of signposts in my Taoist Tai Chi® path that lead me to this point.
Due to recent health hurdles I cannot stress enough how Taoist Tai Chi® practice has helped and enriched my wellbeing and life.
Zoom discussions with members of the international board and leaders in training have been illuminating through these difficult times, for our branches and participants, and with their guidance we have committed to see ourselves through. They have encouraged us all to cultivate our minds and strengthen our bodies. They have discussed things we have heard before in sessions – ‘how does that feel’, ‘relax’ – and you know what, doing that at home without any performance anxiety, you can feel this and go deeper with the many intrinsic parts of just one move. As such, I have continued my physical and mental journey by relaxing my heart.
Every day is a new day and a chance for exploration of self, and through our Taoist Tai Chi® practice at home we can all do this. The benefits of joining Zoom sessions will enrich all aspects of your journey.
Before the pandemic, I had practiced Taoist Tai Chi® arts for many years, but I can see clearly now that I was only surfing on it, staying on the surface of the learning and the transformation because I was afraid to go deep into my heart. The fear to dig in the pain that I had accumulated during all my childhood and my youth had made me very rigid. While reflecting on my journey and writing it down, I discovered that the desire to stay connected with our organisation was the essential thing that made me progress. This community is healing me.
I’m coming to understand the role anxiety plays in my life. When I was pretty new to the organization, I’d sometimes go to a session after a particularly bad day at work. Like as not, the practice would feel clumsy. But by the end of the session, I’d notice that I was much less anxious. The tension must have been leaching out of me as the session was going on, but without me noticing as it was happening.
Keď sa pozriem späť na posledný rok a pol, veľmi výrazne dokážem rozlíšiť tri oblasti alebo veci, ktoré som začal oveľa viac, intenzívnejšie vnímať:
Looking back on the last year and a half, I can very clearly distinguish three areas or things that I have begun to perceive much more, more intensively:
I was caught in the turbulence of anger, anxiety and fear about something I could do nothing about. At one point I acted rudely. Then I experienced the effect on my body, feeling unwell and very tired. I was ashamed of my actions. I didn’t think I was susceptible to such strong emotions.
Taoist Tai Chi® practice, including chanting, helped me and my body return to calm. I reflected on the virtues, especially sense of shame as it connects to filial piety. Would I have acted thus if my parents or Master Moy had been present? The practice and discipline of meditation is also becoming more important. I thought of the reminder, ‘don’t go there’, using it over and over again but in a soft way, gently letting go. This is a hopeful and balancing work in progress.
Today at the All Souls Festival chanting on Zoom I was overwhelmed by emotion.
During the Three Seasons Scripture, Repentance and Lighting Ceremony sutra, I thought of how grateful I was that Master Moy Lin Shin had brought these teachings and formed this organization to help us. Every time I thought of him my voice would break and tears came streaming down. I felt connected to our source and ever so grateful that he was always there.
I am going through a stressful and chaotic time of change. The release while seeking reconciliation was what I needed. I was so happy to take part in the Festival For All Souls online as in previous years I gained so much by attending in Calgary. The leader’s beautiful voice taped for the online chanting was a comfort to follow along with in the chanting. I know I will always have a family in Taoist Tai Chi® arts wherever I go.
Die Taoist Tai Chi® Künste zu üben, hat mich zu meinem innersten Inneren gebracht. Ich habe während vieler Jahre viel Trauer mit mir herumgetragen. Das tägliche Üben während der letzten zwei Jahre hat es mir möglich gemacht, meine Trauer und meine Wut über den Verlust meiner Tochter, die ich bei einem Unfall mit einem Auto verloren habe, loszulassen.
Auch das Chanting an den Samstagen und die Gespräche helfen mir. Obwohl ich in Englisch nicht viel verstehe, verstehe ich viel mit meinem Herzen. Ich habe viele Verletzungen und körperliche Schwierigkeiten davon getragen vom Unfall. Diese werden durch das Üben der Taoist Tai Chi® Künste immer weniger. Dafür bin ich sehr dankbar.
Darum bleibt mir nur noch herzlichen Dank für Alles zu sagen!
Practicing the Taoist Tai Chi® arts has brought me to the innermost part of myself. I was carrying a lot of grief with me for many years. The daily practice during the past two years has allowed me to let go of the anger and grief I felt about the loss of my daughter through an accident with a car.
Also the chanting on Saturdays and the talks help me. Although I do not understand a lot of English, I understand a lot with my heart. I have many injuries and physical difficulties from the accident. They are getting fewer and fewer through the practice of the Taoist Tai Chi® arts. I am very grateful for this.
So all I can say is a heartfelt thank you for everything!